to say the last couple of weeks have been huge is just the tip of the iceberg. i kind of don't know where to start. over the last let's say just under a year, i have re-kindled a lost friendship. a friendship that was probably the most profound of my life, so far. never had i ever felt so connected to someone, a peer who was my equal, in every way shape and form, until he was not. he ruined our friendship almost beyond repair. almost. that happened about 6 years ago now. and only now are we able to possibly regain some of what we have lost. we chatted yesterday, it was not the first time since, but it is the beginning. i haven't laughed that hard in years. i have great hope for us. great hope indeed.
the by-product of this, involves another unexpected surprise. although it hasn't happened yet, i will most likely have the oportunity to build a relationship with my god-daughter. she is, like a grown-up now, and will be attending state his fall. i guess we shall see.
speaking of friends...i have another friend that just checked himself into re-hab, last week. hard core lock-down, the whole thing. whoa. huge stuff happening. i never thought those words would come out of my mouth. ever. and i never would have guessed this friend in particular, for sure. i will not hear from him for about 3 months. i'm not worried (well i am of course) but i know this will give him his life back. it will be a happy thanksgiving.
in the meantime, i have made a few new friends. i think it is interesting making new friends. how much do you put out there right away. i love recognizing the way people click, or don't in the beginning. i already know i have made at last one friend that will last through the years.
i'm so lucky to have great friends, and that i make friends easily. when you walk around with love it reaps the greatest rewards. living with an open heart may hurt sometimes, but the rewards and results are worth it and in my opinion, unparalleled.
a few weekends ago, i finally got the opportunity to meet the family of one of my nearest and dearest friends. it was a great moment. i was a little emotional. the results of which probably deserve their own post, so more on this another day.
i have started with a personal trainer. at first it was great, then i am sure she was trying to kill me. jk. so we had a heart to heart and now it is good again. let's hope we stay on the same page. today was a get stuff done around the house day so i skipped the gym this morning. tonight after finishing up, i was settling in for some down time....and decided to get off my butt, and go to the gym...at NINE o'clock at night!! I have never done THAT before. before i would have washed my face and jammied up. now as a result i am wide awake at 11:30. i gotta go to bed...oh well...i am hitting the hay immediately after this post.
this post doesn't even tip the glacier of thoughts and growth that has come as the result. i love when i recognize the growth, when i am fully IN the moment. lately i have been in the moment. there is such joy there. pain to of course, but wow, living spherically...simply amazing.
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