sinead o'connor and my mid life crisis

it all started back in 1988 ...flash to watery screen change and bring into focus a 19 girl with a partially shaved head, and huge earrings.

here is my letter to the person who influenced me the most that year...the letter i have finally perfected these 21 years later, just kidding, i wrote it this morning...

hi Chris...i am just checking...i cannot seem to find my Sinead O'Connor cd. i am wondering if i left it at your house? now that i think about it it could be that it slipped out of my purse. i swear it was right there next to my keys. maybe i forgot to grab it?
in all reality it should be filed neatly in my drawer between, "simply red" and the soundtrack to "some kind of wonderful" but it is not. i suppose it could have been lost in the approximately, 18 moves i have made since i lived in Chicago. have you by any chance seen it? angry, Irish, shaved headed, adorable girl with tattoos, on the cover?
if not don't worry, i will just order it on amazon, or download it to my itunes with the gift cards i got for Christmas and my birthday last year.
OK i have no idea why this came up and is so important for me to have it right this minute! i heard her on the radio yesterday and WHOA did it take me back...so i googled you!
i suppose i am just doing what all women do when they turn 40 right, google their past? my guess is that most do this to find plastic surgeons, personally i have held up quite well and on occasions am still carded when i go out. no, not for me...but i do have this increasing need to tell everyone who has had a positive impact on my life, how much they mean/meant to me (like I am dying or something! which p.s. i am not) and a small part of me still wants to BE Sinead O'Connor, but this time i could not shave my head...i mean c'mon...although i consider donating it to "locks of love" a lot.
anyway, the point is, and i do have one, i googled you. i found you and here is my confession...you have made such a positive impression on me and my life in ways you might never know if not for this revelation. if you want to know more, here is my email...if not and you are ok with the quiet understanding that you just never know how you effect people and their life by even the smallest of gestures, then know this...it is true.
the most important thing is that you look well. it seems you followed your heart and i am happy to see it. unless you had another dream i am not aware of, then what are you waiting for...life is short! and i swear i am not dying!
much love,
kristie